Start a blog? About the realities of motherhood intermixed with midwifery and midwifery complicated by motherhood. Both are a calling on my life. Both are extremely important jobs. Both make me a better person. Both make my life meaningful and rich. But doing the 2 together makes life CRAZY! So where do I begin? Let’s go back to when my life was organized and predictable, when I was neither midwife nor mother.
My “Adult” Life
My “adult” life started in 2008. In May, I graduated from Case Western Reserve University. In mid-August, I passed my nursing boards, and on August 31st 2008, after dating since we were 14 years old, I married my husband Steve. My first nursing job started at the end of 2008 on an orthopedic unit. Having had fallen in love with Labor and Delivery during an internship at the end of nursing school, my heart was already in women’s health and working in Orthopedics confirmed it. After six miserable months of working 11pm to 7am 5 days a week (with a 40-minute commute to boot), I landed a full-time Labor and Delivery position only 2 miles from my house. What a glorious transition! I had found my place in the nursing world. I loved my co-workers, my commute, and my patients. But alas, a labor nurse only knows her patients during their birth (which is wonderful), but I wondered about my patients before and after our short 12-hour relationship. I love people. I yearned for a more long-term relationship with these families. Just as I was pondering this dilemma, one of my colleagues happened to be applying to midwifery school and I thought “hm…maybe that would solve my problem” and I immediately applied with her.
My Life as Mama Midwife
Fast forward to May of 2013 and truing the “beginning” of my crazy life as a Mama Midwife. I graduated from midwifery school and was offered a job with the Midwives of NJ. To complicate things a little more, a month after accepting my staff midwife position, I threw pregnancy in with my new career! This was the very distinct point when my carefully planned, predictable life ended and my chaotic, fulfilling life as Mama Midwife began.
In the years since, I have learned how to be a midwife, a mother, and most of all a multitasker (writing this amid my now four children). Yes, in the first 5 years of being a Midwife, I have also been pregnant with and delivered four children. First, my son Owen, followed by my daughter Kara, and then, the craziest surprise of all…my twin girls, Ally and Ella.
This blog will tell my story. I will try to express the conflicts and the synergy of my life as a mother and as a Midwife. The magical journey of having my first child, but as a Midwife, getting no special attention at work with this all too common condition. Planning a homebirth with all the trepidation of any new mother. Wondering if I would be able to accomplish this while religiously reassuring woman after woman that THEY could achieve it. Going back to work postpartum, prioritizing the support of women giving birth and breastfeeding their newborns while my own breasts exploded with no time to pump, painfully reminding me of my child waiting at home. I look forward to sharing how my ups, downs, and education all played a part in the advice that I can now provide to others as a Mama Midwife.